God was faithful. He kept reassuring me and I'd hear Him, but those anxieties continued to creep in! This was a very distressing time for me. I knew that I was God's but it just didn't feel like it. My anxiety told me I wasn't good enough. But God said I was :)
I was reminded of this time today when doing my morning bible reading. I was reading Psalm 15.
Who may live on your holy mountain?
who does what is righteous,
who speaks the truth from their heart;
who does no wrong to a neighbor,
and casts no slur on others;
but honors those who fear the LORD;
who keeps an oath even when it hurts,
and does not change their mind;
who does not accept a bribe against the innocent.
will never be shaken.